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I think, something we are picky, I feel so sad.

picky about music, picky about food,
picky abuot people, picky about a book, something like that.

There are lots of music that it makes people feel happy,
and also food, too.

But if you are picky and you miss it, then don't feel any thing,
I think it's so sad in your life.

cuz u miss lots of chances to be happy.

I hope you have experience lots of chances to be happy.


- suddenly, when I've talked to somebody someday, I heard she's so picky about food,
I just come to mind of this. -


p.s so long time to write a diary.

I'll be back!!!!! soon- ha-

After the day that the hole was in the my heart....

that hole couldn't be cured...

So, now, oftenly, Im painful to my heart..

Yeah, it's nothing, but, just easy to ache, easy to sorrow.

Who makes the hole, and who expands the hole.... those're now just memories to me, but

as the memories, more easy to sorrow.

The hope, and the dream of the 20's, after I was 30's, I feel frustrating and giving up, and feel sorrow with thinking "It's getting impossible anymore?"

That's why...

C'est la vie... nothing good.... and nothing bad.....

Do feel painful, Do not frustrate, Do move tears, Do not weep.

Do not see any light, Do not throw away the hope, Do being tired, Do not give up.

p.s .....eh.... something embarrassed thing that moving love story to life story....

I heard from my junior that the smile left my face.

I... actually know that....but.. I just feel that I pretend not to know, or I don't wanna know, or I deny... like that???

well.. getting old...

why I do, it's already comfortable to me that I couldn't realize anymore.....so it's not important....

No smile, No fun, No special..... while Im getting old, the new thing is all...... bullshit....

bullshit person......

Usually Korean said, Japanese is so different between outer mind and inner mind. More seriously, they smile but betray behind me.

Actually, I have experienced in Canada.

I made Japanese friend in the same class. We sometimes have talked about our house-mates, my house-mate is japanese, and her house-mate too. Someday, we have promised to drink an alchohol, and we met together.

We drunk together. And I and my house-mate felt so good, and laughing alot. And my classmate, and her housemate also looked so feel so good. cuz we laughed together all the time.....

After that, next day, My class mate told me that her house-mate was angry. Cuz my house-mate was so rude...

But.... I think now..... I think it's misunderstanding coming from Japanese personality.

Japanese hates giving any harm to anybody. Sure, also hates having any harm from anybody. But the problem is, concept of harm include concept of uncomfortable. They hate give any harm, and also they don't want to have any uncomfortable feeling after they get help from anybody. So they don't help so well, and they don't get any help so well... It's what I experienced from Japanese.(but most my japanese friends are not)

They hate giving any harm to anybody, so they don't usually say bad topic to anybody. Even they really hate, and be angry with somebody, they don't talk to them. It says that they don't want to make other people getting hurt after talking about bad thing of them. It means when they abuse, they backbite, they don't abuse in front of somebody, so they don't give any harm to somebody. In Korean opinion, we usually feel so bad that people backbite, so that's why Korean usually misunderstand Japanese is different between outer mind and inner mind..

so....

I think she was also like that.... she didn't want me to get hurt, so said good word, and smile....

yeah.. I also hate giving any harm to somebody. Maybe cuz Im easy to get hurt, or my life is full of wound... so I always take care of what I talk, and if I realize I make a tongueslip, I regret on my bed...... am I japanese... ㅡ.ㅡ;;;;

But.... if it's time to get hurt, you should get it. Who says that life is joy and anger together with sorrow and pleasure..(we have specific word, but i can't explain in english..) it can't be happen that alway be happy, alway seeing good thing... it can't be happen. Sometimes getting hurt, sometimes regretting, sometimes crying... and.. it might be the taste of life...

If I get hurt from her seriously... I won't do that like this..... sometimes whenever i feel so lonely.... I realize I think about her.....